The Struggle With My Lean......

This morning as I took a consistent pace around my neighborhood, with my I-POD fully intact I saw the sun come over a hill side beautifully decorated with trees. As I finished my jog I landed on the highest point of our neighborhood in order to get a better view of the sunrise.

From that viewpoint, which happens to be my favorite spot in the morning, the sun shines on this one tree and it produces a color of green that is absolutely amazing. This morning was a bit different in that there was a light fog hovering just beneath the hillside where the sun burst it's first light every morning. I began to stare in amazement and wonder. I then turned the I-POD off that was rocking an awesome song by David Crowder called, "You Are My Joy."

In the stillness of that moment I whispered (a bit awkward I must add) to God a proclamation and prayer. The reason I felt awkward was less about the intensity of my volume but more about the truth that God was actually listening. I proclaimed to God that He was my joy, my hope, and my future. I prayed that I would not lean on my own understanding or anyone else's understanding but that I would fully lean on Him. Trying to pray biblically I reminded God, not that He needs reminding, that my dependence was on Him, the work of Jesus on the cross, and the preserving of my soul. I asked Him to give me more faith to trust Him. I thanked Him for my past, my present, and my future. I celebrated with Him my wife, my daughter, my family, my finances, and my calling.

So many times I struggle with my lean. Leaning on things that are unstable like myself, others, and what the world has to offer will bring us nothing but destruction (some deceptive pleasure as well). I want to lean on Jesus and all His truths.

God help me and my Christian brothers and sisters to learn to lean on You, for everything.

Blake